Even as I type this my fingers are sore, by back hurts and my knees are in complete agony.
HOWEVER, my doctor will not change my pain killers. I have painstakenly said that what I am taking isn't helping but due to my age they will not change them.
Yes I am 26, but any 26 year old shouldn't be experiencing the pain I am with arthritis and HMS. It's getting to the point where I want to go private but being a Student I cannot afford it. So I am stuck on what I am taking until I cannot walk it seems.
I just don't know where to look nowadays. I feel like I am talking to a brick wall when talking about the pain I am experiencing, Over past few days at College I have has to write nearly 1000 words in an essay, and because the LSP folk haven't mentioned about me using a laptop, I HAD to write.
I will tell you, I am on a low dosage of Co-Codamol, both me and my mum feel this isn't helping so are pushing for new pain killers, but the GP I see doesn't want to budge, I ask what happened to the patient rights here, I am on pain killers I feel are NOT helping, shouldn't they see about trying to help me, travelling 90 miles to College in Aberdeen doesn't help much but the fact I am in pain means I can hardly get up there to look for a flat in the area, so its a losing situation I am being put in by my GP and the pain.
I can however understand the problems with pain killers, they can become addictive, but to be fair, I need them all the time anyways to deal with my pain don't I so it is a catch 2 situation but really, the pain needs to be dealt with more than addiction right now (considering I have no addictions). Is my doctor RIGHT to refuse me or should they look at the future to possibly stop any other interactions with the arthritis, scoliosis and HMS from harming me?
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Day one of wearing Tee.
Well, today I wore my t shirt to Aberdeen at College and well, I must say I did get a few heads turning.
I felt so proud today wearing it, as I wasnt able to wear it to the 5K Challenge after I decided that taking part at the moment wasn't a good Idea, well I will be wearing my tee throughout my weightloss challenge (obviously not all the time, it will get washed). I made a couple of modifications to my shirt and well, I am happy with them. I love what I have done, sorry about the changes to it but it was a bittie boring :D. The logo is still 100% visable :D.
As silly old me (actually I only had two hours sleep last night) forgot my camera, amongst other things I really needed, I have only got the picture I took this morning and the picture I took of me at my PC showing my blog page.
Below is my Off taken self portrait!
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Raising the Awareness of Arthritis Care....
Well, I thought to help raise the knowledge of Arthritis Care, I would wear my T-Shirt that I was given to wear for the 5K all next week out and about.
I have chosen to do this because I am very well aware that many people out there don't know that the charity/organisation exists. I have also learned this after speaking to a few of my class mates at College who exclaim that they didn't know arthritis affected younger people, however there has been a couple knowing that you can be born with arthritis.
Speaking of Pain, my pain has been flaring up a lot lately, I think its the cold weather, but who knows. Quite sore at the minute, left arm still goes numb a lot :(. My long walk from Union Street to the College, well it's not really long, only feels it with the pain, bring on many pain, but I cant even get a bus from Union Street to the College even though it is possible because First Aberdeen work on a Exact Money only policy, I have a bus pass (unirider) for Stagecoach, but cant use it on First buses and well no Stagecoach bus goes up by the college, well the Airport bus does, but doesn't stop outside it.
Couple of Friday's ago, the College decided to have a Fire Drill, I was in my class on the 6th Floor and well, walking down the stairs was OK, but I was shocked and disgusted at a lot of students because they were taking up most of the lift space. and because my disability is very much unseen, they didn't know I needed it, so to get back to class it had to walk up the stairs to the 6th floor, I am going to be in contact with my Guidance tutor and Course Leader about this as its not acceptable, I was in so much agony when I got home that night, and really I am still feeling a lot of pain in my knees from it as my codeine doesn't seem to be having any effect any more, so back to the doctors for me.
Just to clarify I sent the email to them and well now awaiting reply, I have my Course Leader tomorrow afternoon for a class so hopefully she will have seen the email and will have some idea to what I can do in the future if this happens again. I mean to walk up six floors with already bad knees is not acceptable when there is two lifts that can be used but keep getting used by students who can most likely use the stairs better than I can. I will keep you all updated on what is suggested to me.
I have my first assessment at College next week and couldn't believe it when I found out that on my LSP (Learning Support Plan), I didn't have that I could use a laptop for assessments when in fact I thought I did. That has been seen to though, but I still have to attempt it handwritten, this should be fun. I better not fail or I will cry (not really), but if I do fail, and need a second attempt, I hope I will be able to use a laptop.
Well boys, girls, women, men, aliens, stars and what not, I shall be leaving this blog today, and I hope that I get some people asking what my T-Shirt is all about at College this week :).
Chow for now!
Pamie
I have chosen to do this because I am very well aware that many people out there don't know that the charity/organisation exists. I have also learned this after speaking to a few of my class mates at College who exclaim that they didn't know arthritis affected younger people, however there has been a couple knowing that you can be born with arthritis.
Speaking of Pain, my pain has been flaring up a lot lately, I think its the cold weather, but who knows. Quite sore at the minute, left arm still goes numb a lot :(. My long walk from Union Street to the College, well it's not really long, only feels it with the pain, bring on many pain, but I cant even get a bus from Union Street to the College even though it is possible because First Aberdeen work on a Exact Money only policy, I have a bus pass (unirider) for Stagecoach, but cant use it on First buses and well no Stagecoach bus goes up by the college, well the Airport bus does, but doesn't stop outside it.
Couple of Friday's ago, the College decided to have a Fire Drill, I was in my class on the 6th Floor and well, walking down the stairs was OK, but I was shocked and disgusted at a lot of students because they were taking up most of the lift space. and because my disability is very much unseen, they didn't know I needed it, so to get back to class it had to walk up the stairs to the 6th floor, I am going to be in contact with my Guidance tutor and Course Leader about this as its not acceptable, I was in so much agony when I got home that night, and really I am still feeling a lot of pain in my knees from it as my codeine doesn't seem to be having any effect any more, so back to the doctors for me.
Just to clarify I sent the email to them and well now awaiting reply, I have my Course Leader tomorrow afternoon for a class so hopefully she will have seen the email and will have some idea to what I can do in the future if this happens again. I mean to walk up six floors with already bad knees is not acceptable when there is two lifts that can be used but keep getting used by students who can most likely use the stairs better than I can. I will keep you all updated on what is suggested to me.
I have my first assessment at College next week and couldn't believe it when I found out that on my LSP (Learning Support Plan), I didn't have that I could use a laptop for assessments when in fact I thought I did. That has been seen to though, but I still have to attempt it handwritten, this should be fun. I better not fail or I will cry (not really), but if I do fail, and need a second attempt, I hope I will be able to use a laptop.
Well boys, girls, women, men, aliens, stars and what not, I shall be leaving this blog today, and I hope that I get some people asking what my T-Shirt is all about at College this week :).
Chow for now!
Pamie
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Sore sore and more sore
I think I need to find a flat in Aberdeen soon.
Travelling is really taking its toll on my joints, last night had massively achey legs and arms, I took my usual meds, seemed to work for a little while but quickly faded.
However, even with all of this, college is going well. Had our first fire drill on Friday (last week), had to walk down SIX floors, oh and walk BACK UP the six floors. I wasn't able to use the life because of alot of LAZY students, doesn't bode well, but I am going to have a chat with my course tutor about it as I find it hard to walk up the stairs as it is at the moment. I am in two minds about seeing my GP about this as well, its causing me alot of agony, distress and discomfort.
I cannot wait until 7th (payday folks :D). But also soon it will be my older brothers 30th birthday, I bought two tickets to the home match at Pittodrie (Aberdeen v Dunfermline), which is on the 30th September, which is greatly my brothers birthday. Also on the 7th October is his Graduation, so proud of him, managing to pass his HNC even with alot of things going about in our family, I think its my turn now since I am doing a HND haha.
I need to start getting involved in alot of things now I am running out of things to do (apart from studying), and now I am settled in college I get start my plans. :). Well, I have to leave it there, my fingers are becoming sore. I shall blog again soon folks :)
Pamie
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Weight Loss Challenge
I am taking part in a weight loss challenge to raise funds for Arthritis Care in Scotland. I made this decision after I decided I wouldn't be travelling to London next month after all the riots in the last week, they may have died down but who knows if they will start up again soon.
I was weighed at the Nurse yesterday when I went for my lovely 3 yearly visit to them (sucks being a woman at times), and I was horrified to see I was sitting at 14 stone..... Now at 5ft 8in I should be between 10 and 11 stone, so I am making a pledge to get my ass off the seat (which I suppose I will be doing at college lol) and loosing up to 3 stone by my 27th Birthday (01/02/2012).
I think I can do it, no in fact I CAN do it :). Not only will this help Arthritis Care in Scotland, but it will also help me in the long run as well.
I am looking to hit the gym at college and play for Aberdeen City Ladies FC. I just hope all goes well for me. I will be taking proper actions in this, and not cheating in any form. I will be seeking medical advise whenever I feel concerned about something. So please, don't worry about me as I do this, I will be keeping a Diary and blogging on my other blogger site and also this one :).
If you wish to sponsor me you can do at http://www.justgiving.com/pamela-north-east-scotland you can also text a donation by texting ARTH85 and your donation amount e.g. ARTH85 £2 to 70070 *note that you can donate either £1, £2, £3, £4, £5 & £10 via text.
Until me next weight loss challenge update. Later folkies :)
Pamie
I was weighed at the Nurse yesterday when I went for my lovely 3 yearly visit to them (sucks being a woman at times), and I was horrified to see I was sitting at 14 stone..... Now at 5ft 8in I should be between 10 and 11 stone, so I am making a pledge to get my ass off the seat (which I suppose I will be doing at college lol) and loosing up to 3 stone by my 27th Birthday (01/02/2012).
I think I can do it, no in fact I CAN do it :). Not only will this help Arthritis Care in Scotland, but it will also help me in the long run as well.
I am looking to hit the gym at college and play for Aberdeen City Ladies FC. I just hope all goes well for me. I will be taking proper actions in this, and not cheating in any form. I will be seeking medical advise whenever I feel concerned about something. So please, don't worry about me as I do this, I will be keeping a Diary and blogging on my other blogger site and also this one :).
If you wish to sponsor me you can do at http://www.justgiving.com/pamela-north-east-scotland you can also text a donation by texting ARTH85 and your donation amount e.g. ARTH85 £2 to 70070 *note that you can donate either £1, £2, £3, £4, £5 & £10 via text.
Until me next weight loss challenge update. Later folkies :)
Pamie
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Where on earth has this year gone?
Well it's a year since my 'HMS' diagnosis and that I was told I would develop 'OA' if I didn't get back into exercising.
It is also just over 3 weeks until I move so you guessed it, tomorrow is 'AUGUST!'. Felt like February yesterday :-/, but seriously where has this year gone, I guess I have been busy blogging about my life too much to even notice the speed. I kind of hope 2012 isn't as fast considering its meant to "end" on the 21st December lol.
I am sitting here watching The Munsters, left arm is in considerable pain, so really should be resting it and not typing this blog but meh, my work has to get done. Fingers are slightly sore aswell, but come to think about it I was sore all of last night, didnt get to sleep until 5am :-(. Didn't get out to play footy the other night because my older brother couldn't be bothered, football isnt fun on your own.
Well aside from preparing for my move, I have just been chatting away to friends on twitter and facebook. Also to my good friend who is known only as 'Beyond' on MSN, who says he is proud of the acheivements I am making, dunno what he means though ha ha. Oh just realised money day tomorrow (or tonight), I suppose I better reserve that mobile for the folks and buy my football boots tonight since they 'tried' to take the money on Friday when in fact the boots aint on general sale until tomorrow, hate it when that happens.
So here is hoping the footy helps the knee pain, no idea what will help the other pain, but hey, 'NHS Grampian' will hopefully work on it all :).
Now I have nooooo Idea what to do today, mum is working and well, dad and bro will be working on 'Trainz', if you are wondering what it is it's a train simulator, can't get them off it :-/, dad being just diagnosed with arthritis himself shouldn't really be sitting at the PC for long times, need to get him out more, he has a bus pass so I don't see why he don't just jump on a bus and go somewhere, I know money is an issue but ye don't always need money to have a good day out, you take your own drink from home etc... Och well.
I also got a date through for my DLA Claim Tribunal, its in September, so will have to do a bit of travelling for that as it is being held in 'Kirkcaldy', you would think I wouldn't be moaning with all the travelling I have done this year already.
It's 6 weeks until the Adidas Women's 5K Challenge in Hyde Park, to which I am competing in to raise funds for Arthritis Care Scotland, if you want to donate just ask how to and I will give you the how to details :).
OK, that's it for July and I will see you all in August.
Pamie
It is also just over 3 weeks until I move so you guessed it, tomorrow is 'AUGUST!'. Felt like February yesterday :-/, but seriously where has this year gone, I guess I have been busy blogging about my life too much to even notice the speed. I kind of hope 2012 isn't as fast considering its meant to "end" on the 21st December lol.
I am sitting here watching The Munsters, left arm is in considerable pain, so really should be resting it and not typing this blog but meh, my work has to get done. Fingers are slightly sore aswell, but come to think about it I was sore all of last night, didnt get to sleep until 5am :-(. Didn't get out to play footy the other night because my older brother couldn't be bothered, football isnt fun on your own.
Well aside from preparing for my move, I have just been chatting away to friends on twitter and facebook. Also to my good friend who is known only as 'Beyond' on MSN, who says he is proud of the acheivements I am making, dunno what he means though ha ha. Oh just realised money day tomorrow (or tonight), I suppose I better reserve that mobile for the folks and buy my football boots tonight since they 'tried' to take the money on Friday when in fact the boots aint on general sale until tomorrow, hate it when that happens.
So here is hoping the footy helps the knee pain, no idea what will help the other pain, but hey, 'NHS Grampian' will hopefully work on it all :).
Now I have nooooo Idea what to do today, mum is working and well, dad and bro will be working on 'Trainz', if you are wondering what it is it's a train simulator, can't get them off it :-/, dad being just diagnosed with arthritis himself shouldn't really be sitting at the PC for long times, need to get him out more, he has a bus pass so I don't see why he don't just jump on a bus and go somewhere, I know money is an issue but ye don't always need money to have a good day out, you take your own drink from home etc... Och well.
I also got a date through for my DLA Claim Tribunal, its in September, so will have to do a bit of travelling for that as it is being held in 'Kirkcaldy', you would think I wouldn't be moaning with all the travelling I have done this year already.
It's 6 weeks until the Adidas Women's 5K Challenge in Hyde Park, to which I am competing in to raise funds for Arthritis Care Scotland, if you want to donate just ask how to and I will give you the how to details :).
OK, that's it for July and I will see you all in August.
Pamie
Friday, July 29, 2011
Painful week going by
Continuing from my last blog, well, this week has been pretty painful.
I am not sure if the weather is involved or if it is my stress levels, either way it's being a pain (see what I did).
I went out today with my mum, thinking I would be paid today as it is a Bank Holiday on Monday, netehhhh, no money, pretty naffed off, I hope I get paid tomorrow then I can buy my football boots, the phone for my bro and well top my phone up.
I haven't been taking my anti-depressants (bad I know), I will start them again on Monday as I need to be "alive" for my move, which is happening in nearly 3 weeks, ye know living like this as a 26 year old is hard, I should be out there playing my beloved football (I am slowly returning to it), getting fit and well just generally being a typical young adult, instead I am shutting myself indoors, why, because people do not understand I suffer from a condition that I cant control, I have no control over HMS or arthritis, none what so ever, if I am sore then I am sore, if I aint, then I aint, it is how it rolls for me.
I know I will be seeking further medical advice when I move to Aberdeen, because I do not want to live on a tablet that is not even trying to help me any more. I think this is what is wrong with the NHS, they do not want to try anything because they think the patient will be fine, well it is with NHS Fife by looks of things, I can understand them not wanting to up my dosage any more, but maybe trying a different medication will help, I really need to be in fit shape for college, mainly because I want to move onto university afterwards to "try" and obtain my BA Journalism, but without the right medical care and attention I really do not think this will happen. I do not want to fail I have come this far and well, it will all be just a waste and why, because I wasnt given the correct treatment at the correct time.
I think I am going to have a kick around the back garden with my older brother, but I have to say that I am looking forward to my move and I look forward to letting you all know on the day about it all :). I shall be off now, chow.
Pamie
I am not sure if the weather is involved or if it is my stress levels, either way it's being a pain (see what I did).
I went out today with my mum, thinking I would be paid today as it is a Bank Holiday on Monday, netehhhh, no money, pretty naffed off, I hope I get paid tomorrow then I can buy my football boots, the phone for my bro and well top my phone up.
I haven't been taking my anti-depressants (bad I know), I will start them again on Monday as I need to be "alive" for my move, which is happening in nearly 3 weeks, ye know living like this as a 26 year old is hard, I should be out there playing my beloved football (I am slowly returning to it), getting fit and well just generally being a typical young adult, instead I am shutting myself indoors, why, because people do not understand I suffer from a condition that I cant control, I have no control over HMS or arthritis, none what so ever, if I am sore then I am sore, if I aint, then I aint, it is how it rolls for me.
I know I will be seeking further medical advice when I move to Aberdeen, because I do not want to live on a tablet that is not even trying to help me any more. I think this is what is wrong with the NHS, they do not want to try anything because they think the patient will be fine, well it is with NHS Fife by looks of things, I can understand them not wanting to up my dosage any more, but maybe trying a different medication will help, I really need to be in fit shape for college, mainly because I want to move onto university afterwards to "try" and obtain my BA Journalism, but without the right medical care and attention I really do not think this will happen. I do not want to fail I have come this far and well, it will all be just a waste and why, because I wasnt given the correct treatment at the correct time.
I think I am going to have a kick around the back garden with my older brother, but I have to say that I am looking forward to my move and I look forward to letting you all know on the day about it all :). I shall be off now, chow.
Pamie
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